Mystery Illness

Anthony is still struggling with his mystery illness. The Lyme disease medicine isn't working and only making his symptoms worse. So after a long conversation with me and then to his doctor, he decided to take himself off the medicine.

As I see it, what is the point of being on a medicine when there is no clear answer as to if he truly has Lyme's. Specially when the side-effects of the Medicine are what he already is experiencing prior to taking it and ultimately making his symptoms 100 times worse.

We did talk about him going off majority of the medicine that he's on to try to figure out which medicines are truly helping and which ones aren't. But it's a lot of medicine. 😒

I took Ezy to the pediatrician yesterday and it turns out that he could have a milk intolerance. His lungs are clear but his nasal pathways. We already struggled with formula and his spitting up but never thought that could cause the rattling and what he's going through. The doctor explained it to this way that due to him spitting up from having a sensitive stomac, the spit up is getting caught in his nasal pathways and causing the overactive mucous secretions. The doctor did give us the nasabulb to try:

                               

Haha I'm not sure how I feel about sucking mucous from my child's nose from my own mouth...but supposedly this thing works better then the suction bulb you get from the hospital or first aid kits. 

I have a sleep study next Wednesday, and to be honest I'm a little nervous about. This will be the first night away from all three littles and Anthony. Not saying that Anthony can't handle it or anything but I worry how the kids are going to react with their momma gone for a night. Yeah, I'm freaking out over one. night...I'll take a shower before I go and go to be early and maybe I'll ACTUALLY sleep! Because being a mom of three under 6 makes me a zombie and then going to school full time on top of that. I can't really remember the last time I was actually able to sleep without someone needing something in the middle of the night. 

-Annie

Reflections of 2015

2015 was a year of regret, hope, growth and realization. 

New friends were made while others were left behind. It was a year of discoveries, triumphs and disappointments. 

It was about self discovery and realization of just how strong I truly was. Bridges were made and some were burned. I discovered a lot of things, mainly what I did and didn't want and finding courage and comfort within my own self. Of accepting things that were unchangeable as they are. 

I experienced hurt, healing, and moving on and forward.

In my choices, I've helped people, but I've also hurt people too. However, I've learned that sometimes, no  matter how much you love someone... if the relationship is toxic, walking away is the one of the bravest and courageous things you could ever do.

I also walked away from faith but I've also come back on my knees to it. I learned that prayer works, but I've also learned that you have to pray about everything, every day. 

Sometimes the journey that God puts in front of you isn't always the prettiest or easiest. Sometimes it's the most ugliest experience, but sometimes in order to get where He wants you to be, you have to go through deep waters. But if you keep faith and give all of your worries and doubt onto him. He certainly does make things better.

Storms destroy things in their wake but they certainly don't last forever. They are needed sometimes to clear out all the junk and debris. They make you stronger and when you finally open your eyes to the clearing you find such beauty and hope for better things.

2016 is going to be a new exciting and wonderful journey. It's going to be my (and yours too) metamorphosis of lovely and shinning brightly. Of growing, learning and being true to ones self! 

It's easy to let your true colors shine when you are surrounded by postive people who truly love you. 

I wanted to thank you and everyone else who has helped me through these really tough times and situations this year, all the emails of positivity and support. I have so much appreciation for you all! 

So I hope 2016 is a wonderful, magical year filled with love, new discoveries and friendships for all of you! Happy New Year!

-Annie

Ezra Lee at 1 Month Old

Where on earth has time gone to? I cannot believe that my littlest love is a month old already!