Hey lovelies!
Sorry that I've been so MIA lately, we are still trying to "move in" our new house LOL! We've been here for a month now and we still somewhat live out of boxes. Haha I'm not used to having so much house that honestly, I'm not really sure what to do with it all! Someone please come help me figure it out!
Besides trying to unpack, I've been busy with tons of DIY projects! The current non-endless craft project are my eldest children's rooms and I finally finished painting their rooms two weeks ago (before and after photos to come at a later time). It's just been a really slooow process with finding those perfect (or not to perfect) pieces for their rooms.
On top of that, I'm hoping my war with PCOS is coming to a close (*fingers crossed*). I finally had a period naturally. Which is something I'm over the moon for because I hate taking medicine! It also means we are seriously one step closer to being able to TTC. However, last week I did have an ultrasound of my uterus and they did find something (but are unsure what) in there. So, I am scheduled for a hystoscopy and D&C Tuesday of next week. I'm nervous and excited all at the same time because, Ezra will be a year in June and we have been given the green light to start trying for baby #4 then if we want. Which is awesome and I'm super stoked about it but, I have SO much on my plate right now.
For about two years now, it has been one of my dreams to start a women's ministry. My ultimate goal is to help women of all types and ages discover their strength and worth and the love Jesus Christ has for them. Through sharing the stories of other women who have struggled with everything from adoption, domestic violence, and life in general (because it's hard) I hope to help empower women. Because you are not alone, you are loved, you have been since conception in your mothers womb. You were fearfully and wonderfully made and there is a whole group of amazing women ready to share their story honestly and openly in hopes to help and encourage you. If you are reading this and you would like to share your story and how God helped you triumph; please feel free to contact me. I would love to talk with you and share your story!
Other than that, everything has pretty much been mellow. I hope you all have a blessed Friday and weekend!
much love,
Showing posts with label health. Show all posts
Showing posts with label health. Show all posts
The War With PCOS
I just want a period.
I want my body to ovulate, shed its lining and bleed like it is supposed to. Is that to much to be asking for? Seriously, for Christmas all I want is for my body to straighten up, bleed on its own and without the need of medicine.
Gosh I remember when I used to hate having my period, now I would do anything just to have one. The things we take for granted.
All these medicines do crazy things to my body symptom wise. I can't handle Provera, I started Progesterone 200mg and I feel like I'm drunk. I tired birth control at the lowest dose they could give me. The crazy mood swings and constant bleeding (going from no bleeding to constant non stop bleeding) was too overwhelming.
Then there is my weight issue, they keep telling me if I lose the weight I can reverse PCOS but if my hormones are already out of whack then how am I to lose the weight? Because hormones and weight are linked together after all.
I feel like the odds are forever against me.
I was supposed to have had a D&C done a while back but that never happened. Instead when I went and saw the OBGYN that my midwife referred me to for the consult, he only prescribed me more medicine. My midwife had seen some polyps in my uterus along with the thick lining and thought it would be in my best interest if I had a hystoscopy and D&C done. No one has even looked at my previous uterine ultrasounds, or even discussed polyps and other things my midwife found when she did the saline solution ultrasound (which those suck by the way).
So now I'm wondering: do I really have PCOS OR is there something else that is causing my body to not be able to menstruate on its own?
I'm going to call in the morning to another OBGYN at a different hospital to get my third (really second) opinion. I feel like the other doctor didn't do much just said "yeah whatever, take these pills and see me in a few months."
I'm getting so tried of putting junk into my body that's really doing more harm to me than good. Yes, I am getting a period but at what cost?
I work in the medical field and I always hear ladies complain about getting their periods. OK I get it, sometimes it's a little inconvenient when you aren't prepared for it. But complaining about it to someone who suffers from PCOS, is like waving sugar in front of a diabetic. We want it but we can't have it; unless we suffer the consequences to have it:
I mean look at this gigantic horse pill I have to take at bed time! I think that if I don't eat a big/heavy meal or take it drinking a full bottle of water the dizzy/drunk/vertigo feeling is much worse. The drinking of the full bottle of water before bed makes my bladder angry and I'm staggering around the house in middle of the night like a young college girl again. Where's the bathroom again? There's a light around here somewhere!
The medicine makes me feel tired during the day. I am normally very productive during the day but the days that I have to take this medicine I was just so tired. Ezra sleeps through the night; 9 hours of snuggly sleeping baby bliss. So there isn't a lack of sleep, just one (of its many) crazy symptom of this medicine.
-Annie
You Are Lovely: Day 2 : Setting Goals
Day two of my 356 project and I'm already feeling motivated. I am excited about all the changes I'm making however, I understand that sometimes I will have set backs. I know that there may be times that I may get frustrated, and I'm accepting of that. This isn't something that is going to be instant, no matter how much I want it to be. I have to work hard and lovingly for this. I wont lie though, if I could snap my fingers, be skinny and happier with myself, I probably would have done it by now.
One of the rules that I've set for myself, is omitting the word 'can't'. I'm completely throwing this word out of my vocabulary. This is also turn all of my negatives into positives, no more looking down on myself, and no more wishing about thing .This is the time that I'm actually going to DO things!
Today I sat myself down and set an ideal goal of what I would like to weigh by the end of this project. I've also decided to post pictures of my progress (though as embarrassed as I am). This will help me to work even harder, stay on track and be motivated. I want to feel just as beautiful on the outside as I do on the inside.
I'm going to make a weight chart and update it each week at weigh in to help further along my progress. I do better when I can see it, chart it and write it out. This goes for everything that I do, I'm more of a visual processor. The weight chart will be pretty simple because I don't want to make this too overly complicated. It'll be pretty simple, I'll fill in to the weight I am until I have reached my goal weight.
I think I've set a manageable goal: giving myself three hundred sixty-five days and that's more than enough time. I know that I have to stay positive in order to fight through any uncertainties that I may have.
One of the rules that I've set for myself, is omitting the word 'can't'. I'm completely throwing this word out of my vocabulary. This is also turn all of my negatives into positives, no more looking down on myself, and no more wishing about thing .This is the time that I'm actually going to DO things!
Today I sat myself down and set an ideal goal of what I would like to weigh by the end of this project. I've also decided to post pictures of my progress (though as embarrassed as I am). This will help me to work even harder, stay on track and be motivated. I want to feel just as beautiful on the outside as I do on the inside.
I'm going to make a weight chart and update it each week at weigh in to help further along my progress. I do better when I can see it, chart it and write it out. This goes for everything that I do, I'm more of a visual processor. The weight chart will be pretty simple because I don't want to make this too overly complicated. It'll be pretty simple, I'll fill in to the weight I am until I have reached my goal weight.
I think I've set a manageable goal: giving myself three hundred sixty-five days and that's more than enough time. I know that I have to stay positive in order to fight through any uncertainties that I may have.
You Are Lovely Project : 365 Days To A Healthier Body Positive Me
I actually wanted to start this project last month, but lets be honest procrastination, being a momma to baby #3 and well, being a little lazy kept me putting this off. I have been struggling with my weight and body image ever since I was a teen and started having children. Starting this 356 project I hope to:
So why a 365 day project?
It took me almost year to gain this weight. Yes I know, I was pregnant for 9 of those months. However, I've adopted some unhealthy eating habits post baby. So I know it will take me at least year to get the weight off by doing it the right and healthy way. Which means eating right, exercising, and loving myself and my body genuinely and unconditionally. Remember, it's not about perfection but about progress! Loving ourselves and our bodies with total genuine and unconditional acceptance.
Being lovely:
So here is where being lovely comes in, for the last few years I've battled the ugly demon of depression. The loss of my mother, a failed first marriage,and a emotionally abusive relationship really took a tole on my self-esteem and body image. I wanted to start this project and take all the negativity and body shaming that I've experienced (from others and myself) and turn it into something positive.
By the end of this project I plan to be a healthier, happier, and (hopefully) lighter young woman. I have learned that we often lose ourselves when chaos occurs in our lives. This project is my attempt at becoming a more confident and body positive person and encouraging other on their journey as well.
I hope that as I share my triumphs (and sometimes defeats), I can inspire others as well as they go through their journey to a healthier lifestyle. So here it is:
If you would like to join me on my project, please comment below or email me so that we can link to each others blog, track our progress and keep each other motivated. :)
- Have a better out look on my life.
- Stress less.
- Have healthier eating habits.
- Be 50lbs lighter.
- Worry less.
- No longer be in a slump.
- Encourage others on their journey to healthier living.
- And above all else: Be ME, Be Lovely!
So why a 365 day project?
It took me almost year to gain this weight. Yes I know, I was pregnant for 9 of those months. However, I've adopted some unhealthy eating habits post baby. So I know it will take me at least year to get the weight off by doing it the right and healthy way. Which means eating right, exercising, and loving myself and my body genuinely and unconditionally. Remember, it's not about perfection but about progress! Loving ourselves and our bodies with total genuine and unconditional acceptance.
Being lovely:
So here is where being lovely comes in, for the last few years I've battled the ugly demon of depression. The loss of my mother, a failed first marriage,and a emotionally abusive relationship really took a tole on my self-esteem and body image. I wanted to start this project and take all the negativity and body shaming that I've experienced (from others and myself) and turn it into something positive.
By the end of this project I plan to be a healthier, happier, and (hopefully) lighter young woman. I have learned that we often lose ourselves when chaos occurs in our lives. This project is my attempt at becoming a more confident and body positive person and encouraging other on their journey as well.
I hope that as I share my triumphs (and sometimes defeats), I can inspire others as well as they go through their journey to a healthier lifestyle. So here it is:
You Are Lovely: Project 365.
Mystery Illness
Anthony is still struggling with his mystery illness. The Lyme disease medicine isn't working and only making his symptoms worse. So after a long conversation with me and then to his doctor, he decided to take himself off the medicine.
As I see it, what is the point of being on a medicine when there is no clear answer as to if he truly has Lyme's. Specially when the side-effects of the Medicine are what he already is experiencing prior to taking it and ultimately making his symptoms 100 times worse.
We did talk about him going off majority of the medicine that he's on to try to figure out which medicines are truly helping and which ones aren't. But it's a lot of medicine. 😒
I took Ezy to the pediatrician yesterday and it turns out that he could have a milk intolerance. His lungs are clear but his nasal pathways. We already struggled with formula and his spitting up but never thought that could cause the rattling and what he's going through. The doctor explained it to this way that due to him spitting up from having a sensitive stomac, the spit up is getting caught in his nasal pathways and causing the overactive mucous secretions. The doctor did give us the nasabulb to try:
Haha I'm not sure how I feel about sucking mucous from my child's nose from my own mouth...but supposedly this thing works better then the suction bulb you get from the hospital or first aid kits.
I have a sleep study next Wednesday, and to be honest I'm a little nervous about. This will be the first night away from all three littles and Anthony. Not saying that Anthony can't handle it or anything but I worry how the kids are going to react with their momma gone for a night. Yeah, I'm freaking out over one. night...I'll take a shower before I go and go to be early and maybe I'll ACTUALLY sleep! Because being a mom of three under 6 makes me a zombie and then going to school full time on top of that. I can't really remember the last time I was actually able to sleep without someone needing something in the middle of the night.
-Annie
Morning Energy Juicer // Recipe
My measurements may be a wee bit off, but I'm usually right on when it comes to eyeball measurments.
- 1 Cup Kale
- 1/2 Cup Fresh picked Blackberries (frozen)
- 1/2 Cup Fresh picked Raspberries
- 1/3 Cup Freash Peach slices
- 5 Small baby Carrots
- 1 large Banana
Saying Goodbye To The Girls.
Almost two months ago I had undergone a surgery that has since changed my life in such a positive way imaginable! What may you ask did I have done? Well going by my title for this post and if you're guess right...
Yes, I said GOODBYE TO MY BOOBIES!
This has been one of the best life changing experiences I have made since deciding to go the healthy rout in life (cutting out all the yucky garbage in my food and going Paleo (thanks to Miss Ashley Vos) and gluten free).
Let’s face it, my entire young adult life I have always been … well-endowed. By age 13 (well into puberty at this point) I was in a size DD and the older I got well … the bigger they got. Growing up I was never really a chubby kid, I was just all boobs. After being sick for a while, my mum passing away when I was 19, on top of being a brand new mom at 20 I put on a lot of stress weight, and my weight went everywhere but my butt, (the only place in the world I WISH I had fat in LOL)! Adding even more pounds to my chest. By the time I was 22 I had two babies, a size G bra and 40 pounds added to my small frame. So for the last three years I have yo-yo dieted, which has sucked. But somehow I managed to lose a lot of the weight and keep a steady 175 (which doesn’t look bad for my height since I’ve got long legs and a semi short torso)pounds, but I was still lugging around ginormous tata’s every day. Which made me super self-conscious. I seriously avoided the gym and running for fear of being knocked out or facing a black eye from being whacked in the face by my own boobs...
For the last year and a half I was a
three-times-a-week chiropractic patient just to relieve the pain and pressure
off my back from the girls. Bras never fit right, I was always secretly tucking
my boobs back into my bra and those super sexy lace bras (you know the ones I’ve
been drooling over from Modcloth) I kissed those goodbye years ago because they
were ALWAYS out of the question for me. I was stuck with vanilla wide strap
bras that cost way too much considering they are just two large triangles with
straps.
So after months of chiropractic care and not seeing
any relief, I finally called my insurance (which I am SO very thankful to have
a wonderful insurance company that was so easy to work with during this
process) to get names and numbers of Doctors who would do a medical breast
reduction. The
list was extremely short. Like only three doctors short. Which is crazy
since I’m about 30 minutes from Knoxville Tennessee and there are SO many
plastic surgeons there. Only one out
of the three was still doing medically needed breast reductions. ONLY ONE and
HE was a male. Which to be honest, I’m really weird about having male doctors
they never seem to have any good bedside manors and they just can’t relate to a
woman like a female doctor can.
So on top of that I was super nervous and very awkward when it was time to go for
my appointment (plus I was about 20 minutes late because of down town Knoxville
traffic and UT hospital is HUGE! I had to ask for directions twice, inside of the building)!
The first initial appointment is like any other “first
time seeing the doctor” appointment. They measure you, take your weight, the
nurse asks if you have had any family history of breast cancer or tumors, past
surgeries etc. etc. you dress out of your street clothes and into a surgical
gown. Seriously, it’s just like any other typical doctor visit.
They give you a little time to get undressed, gown
on and get comfortable. Both the doctor and his nursing assistant walk into the
room, introduce themselves and then begin working. He took more measurements
and then examined my chest tells the nurse and she jots them down in your chart.
The one things I was extremely worried about was my right breast. Some of the
tissue was missing due to a lumpectomy that was done three years ago which
unfortunately left a giant hole the size of two fingers and a huge indention.
I have always been told that when meeting with a new
doctor for the first time about a specific procedure always, ALWAYS ask questions. Never leave
anything unturned or left unspoken because the more information you get from
them the better you will be and feel about your procedure. Never go into a major
surgery with no information given or concerns/questions answered!
Let me tell you, I had a HUGE list of questions to ask
too! He answered every question that I had with genuine concern and he was so
honest with me. Which is pretty admirable considering. No wonder all the women
in the lobby ooh’ed and ahh’ed over him when I asked about their experience
with him.
Now let me give you some advice on this process if
you are entertaining the thought of a medically needed breast reduction. It is
also good to seek out other options before you resort to this if you are having
back problems or pain due to the enormous pressure and pull that is cause by
your large breasts. This major surgery really is looked at as your FINAL and LAST RESORT.
Here are some other options you can look into to
find some relief: a great chiropractor, massage therapist, or physical
therapist. All these options I have done, but the relief I experienced wasn’t long
lasting.
1. Have existing problems that are fully
documented in detail from other doctors. It is also good to have at least two
doctor recommendations such as your primary care doctor, chiropractor or
physical therapist. Insurance will not accept the procedure if you don’t.
2. Have
a good insurance company. Call and talk with one of their health advisors about
this first. They will be the first to give you information on it, your coverage
and recommend doctors.
3. Research
the doctors from the list that they give you. I always want to know who I’m seeing,
what they have done in the past, if they have any (good or bad) reviews from
previous patients, and check out their work. Most plastic surgeons have a
website that you can look at to gather this information or you can google
search them.
4. Make
your first initial appointment for the doctor you choose from the list they
gave you. This first appointment is free of charge and you or your insurance
will not be billed. Be sure to bring the following with you to your appointment:
·
your list of questions and concerns
·
insurance card and information
·
recommendations from two other doctors
5. If
you feel comfortable with the doctor, make the appointment for your surgery and
wait. The surgeon will fax all the needed information to your insurance
company. It is now up to them if you are eligible for the procedure.
It took my insurance company a while to review all the
information my surgeon had faxed them. To be really honest, I prayed long and
hard on this and my prayers were answered. My surgery was accepted by my
insurance company a week before my surgery!
When I received the news from the ladies at my surgeon’s
office, I was over joyed! I seriously cried my eyes out long and hard. I even
had the staff crying over the phone with me! This was something I had been
praying about for quite some time and now it was finally being answered! I even
called and texted everyone on my little contact list. My best friend, which I
still laugh out loud about this, said over the phone “Wow I’ve never heard
someone so excited to get her boobies chopped off!” But it was true, I was so
happy! Years and years of dealing with the pain and pull and my spine being so
out of alignment was finally over, I would be more comfortable and confident
and now I felt like I could really shed those baby and stress weight pounds
off.
Surgery day came quicker than I imagined and I was a
nervous wreck. Which if you read my blog post about the tumor I had removed
from my back and leg a few years ago, I always get crazy pre-surgery jitters. It’s
really bad, to the point where I rewrite my will just-in-case. Which seems
silly because I’ve had SO many surgeries, more than I can count on both hands.
Anyway surgery day, I get prepped and marked. My
chest seriously looked like my three year old took a marker to me. There were
marks all over the place! These marks tell my doctor where he needs to go and
what he needs to cut and where he needs to place what where. So I looked like
an art project for a few hours.
Three hours and FOUR pounds removed from my chest
later, I was out of surgery and feeling great! The staff was amazing and took
great care of me and not to mention they gave me a super sexy surgical bra to
wear (really, it’s not bad for a surgical bra). ;-)
Recovery lasted three weeks, which I highly enjoyed
being waiting on hand and foot not having to lift a single finger. Really. I
didn’t lift anything. For three weeks. I slept in, watched moves, and got a lot
of my early summer reading done! I was able to shower on my forth day. The only
things that was really bothersome was the drainage tubes and bulbs you had to
empty every nine hours and record.
I was released for normal exercise and routine in
June and since I now run the local outdoor track, joined a gym, and have lost
15 more pounds! I am finally feeling good about myself. I’ve dropped down to
seeing the Chiropractor only when I really need it. Over all I just feel really
good about myself and my body and I am so glad I had this done. I went from a G
to a small B and I could not be any happier with the outcome!
Eight Months Old!
I finally made the huge leap back in October to get my second tattoo... a very large tattoo at that.
Considering that my first tattoo was a teeny tiny little anchor on my foot. The little guy is super small and I'm sure at first glance it looks like a mole on my right inner ankle.
If you had been following me on pinterest, I spent days, weeks, and even months pinning vintage inspired etching tattoos. I wanted something elegant, vintage and totally me but I also wanted it to have a deeper meaning. I wanted something that also helped me remember my precious late mum and dad.
I was so picky on an artist too, so many people couldn't grasp my concept and others just turned me away because what I wanted was too detailed. I was also super picky about who did it too. I mean after all this is going on my skin forever. After feeling completly discouraged, one of my friends sent me on my way to the lovely miss Kitty Brooks of Ink and Leather Social Club. I am so happy I found Kitty because she helped me through the whole process and we were able to bounce off each other ideas. She's super awesome all together and just a great person to work with!
So 10+ hours later, I walk out with the most gorgeous cap I have ever seen! Her work and detail that she put into is just .. stunning!
Considering that my first tattoo was a teeny tiny little anchor on my foot. The little guy is super small and I'm sure at first glance it looks like a mole on my right inner ankle.
If you had been following me on pinterest, I spent days, weeks, and even months pinning vintage inspired etching tattoos. I wanted something elegant, vintage and totally me but I also wanted it to have a deeper meaning. I wanted something that also helped me remember my precious late mum and dad.
I was so picky on an artist too, so many people couldn't grasp my concept and others just turned me away because what I wanted was too detailed. I was also super picky about who did it too. I mean after all this is going on my skin forever. After feeling completly discouraged, one of my friends sent me on my way to the lovely miss Kitty Brooks of Ink and Leather Social Club. I am so happy I found Kitty because she helped me through the whole process and we were able to bounce off each other ideas. She's super awesome all together and just a great person to work with!
So 10+ hours later, I walk out with the most gorgeous cap I have ever seen! Her work and detail that she put into is just .. stunning!
Miss Kitty going to work!
24 hours later.
It was 2-3 weeks later that I went back to add more peonies and my compass/pocket watch.
all filled in and beautiful!
Here is my gorgeous tattoo in Janurary all healed and looking pretty!
I have gotten so many compliments on my tattoo, even from people I wouldn't really expect. I cannot wait to add more!
5 Things They Don't Tell You About Divorce
I have been divorced from my ex-husband for a while now, but it still leaves a bad taste in my mouth. I think it bothers me more because I was raised that you never get divorced; you stay married or you are a failure. The failure aspect still bothers me even well after the fact. To be honest, there were a lot of things that I wish I had known before getting married. Like how you can read all the books on how to cope with it but nothing really prepares you until you experience it first hand. Here are my top five.
1. It's expensive.
Maybe I am a bit naive when it comes to certain things but, no one ever explained to me just how expensive getting a divorce is. Lawyer fees, court fees, and any other additional fees can pretty much wipe out your bank account. The two of you cannot agree on anything? It took almost a year before we could see "eye to eye" and settle. Our divorce in the end, cost more than our actual wedding.
2. It's painful.
Sadness, regret and failure are just some of the emotions that accompany divorce; and I wasn't ready for any of these emotions. I wasn't prepared to be a failure and I never wanted to raise my children in a broken home. Even after moving on, I find that it still hurts and that hurt will always be there. Just the thought of getting married again scares me a little because, I never want to be back in that place. You also tend to really find out just how spiteful the other person can be, specially with kids and property involved. Nothing can mentally or emotionally prepare you either for the gut wrenching feeling when another woman comes into your childrens' lives and "mothers" them... in front of you. This is something that I still have difficulty dealing with because after all, she was never in the plan.
3. You lose friends.
I don't care what anyone tells you, you will lose some friends once this process starts. People will always pick a side and it doesn't matter who was at fault or who did what or who filed for what. So be prepared for that. You will know very quickly who will be there to support you and those who aren't. I had to learn this the hard way that you also have to be very careful about who you let in or tell things to because there are some people who are disguised to have your best interest but they are really only there to try to sabotage you. So be careful! Protect yourself and your heart.
4. It's difficult on your children.
It doesn't matter what age your children are, divorce is divorce and it's hard on them. I think my biggest blow to the face that I experienced through this was when my oldest son came home crying after he had spent a long weekend with his dad. When I asked him what was going on, his reply was "Daddy asked X to marry him." My oldest was sobbing uncontrollably because he finally realized that his dad and I were done. We weren't ever going to get back together. He kept asking me what could he do to fix it. Did he do something wrong? Was he too bad? He couldn't grasp the concept of his daddy loving another woman and asking her to marry him. And that honestly killed me, I spent most of that evening cuddling my little guy trying to remind him that he wasn't the reason why we didn't love each other anymore. If anything he was the reason that kept us trying for so long to keep it together. We failed him, he didn't fail us.
5. You have two options: be bitter or be better.
I seriously can't stress this enough you can either chose to let the divorce cripple you OR empower you to do better. I learned through my first marriage about what I really wanted out of a partner, I learned that love is respect and to never settle for less. Because even in the most darkest time there is always light at the end of the tunnel.
I Did It!
If you have been following my Instrgram feed, you probably have seen my color bomb mess of selfies on there!
But I am so very proud of those because that was my very first 5k I have ever done! I pushed though a lot of it and I am so glad I had the support that I had with me on this run. I chose an awesome 5k to start out with. This is Color Me Rad's second time in Knoxville and the proceedings went to East Tennessee's Children Hospital.
But I am so very proud of those because that was my very first 5k I have ever done! I pushed though a lot of it and I am so glad I had the support that I had with me on this run. I chose an awesome 5k to start out with. This is Color Me Rad's second time in Knoxville and the proceedings went to East Tennessee's Children Hospital.
The map of our run
Vanessa and I before
Vanessa and I after
Lets Play Catch Up!
Okay... It has been quite some time since my last post, so let me catch you all up to speed. Last week not only did I pick up a little part time job, but I also got a nasty little infection that had me down from Monday to Thursday. Blah, it was horrible!
I did however start a new job! I have been working non-stop and I am enjoying it.
I've also been working on Goodnight Nora, which will be my new jewelry shop on Etsy. I'm excited about it, I've already made a bunch of inventory. Now just to get the store up and ready to go which has been a process!
Graham and Chloe have been growing like wild fire too. Graham got his cast off last Thursday and unfortunately was a traumatic experience once again. It was bad enough trying to stitch him up the week before, then getting the cast on the following week, but removing it was horrifying! Graham had Sueann in tears (my friend and baby sitter) Jeffrey and two other nurses had to hold the poor little guy down. Yes, it was that bad! His toe still sticks straight up so I'm not sure what they will really do about this because over time his toes (which by the way already started to do mind you) will start to curl under that second toe. So I'm just kind of frustrated at this point.
I'm still working on my weight loss journey though I haven't posted about it in a while. I try to eat healthy as I possibly can though some times it's hard because there are so many ''easy ways'' to obtain food. There are fast food joints at almost every corner. Each one saying ''Natasha come to me, eat my delicious overly processed food, come to me, come to me my darling!'' It's really tough, and I've been trying to pack healthy food and snacks to work, though sometimes it can be a bit of a fail, but I have been making an effort to drink a lot more water though. But that's what has been going on the last few weeks, sorry to keep lagging it's just trying to find the right time.
I did however start a new job! I have been working non-stop and I am enjoying it.
I've also been working on Goodnight Nora, which will be my new jewelry shop on Etsy. I'm excited about it, I've already made a bunch of inventory. Now just to get the store up and ready to go which has been a process!
Graham and Chloe have been growing like wild fire too. Graham got his cast off last Thursday and unfortunately was a traumatic experience once again. It was bad enough trying to stitch him up the week before, then getting the cast on the following week, but removing it was horrifying! Graham had Sueann in tears (my friend and baby sitter) Jeffrey and two other nurses had to hold the poor little guy down. Yes, it was that bad! His toe still sticks straight up so I'm not sure what they will really do about this because over time his toes (which by the way already started to do mind you) will start to curl under that second toe. So I'm just kind of frustrated at this point.
I'm still working on my weight loss journey though I haven't posted about it in a while. I try to eat healthy as I possibly can though some times it's hard because there are so many ''easy ways'' to obtain food. There are fast food joints at almost every corner. Each one saying ''Natasha come to me, eat my delicious overly processed food, come to me, come to me my darling!'' It's really tough, and I've been trying to pack healthy food and snacks to work, though sometimes it can be a bit of a fail, but I have been making an effort to drink a lot more water though. But that's what has been going on the last few weeks, sorry to keep lagging it's just trying to find the right time.
365 Project :: 2,060 Squat Challenge and Thoughts.
A 365 do over, what? Yeah ... I'm calling a do over because I went almost two weeks of not really eating right, even though I kept my portions small I still wasn't eating the right stuff, so I'm calling a do-over!
Above is my current weight, which is 177 lbs. Yes I know, I am awful, I'm starting over AGAIN. Rome wasn't built in a day. I just have to keep telling myself that I CAN.
This morning I've mostly stayed in the house, I had some major laundry work to do, it was to the point where the more laundry I did the thought of being a nudest wasn't really that scary. Majority of laundry consisted of my little ones belongings from piles and piles of socks. Hopefully the drier doesn't eat them again, I can't tell you how many times I've had to buy brand new pairs of socks for everyone!
I realize by the time I sit down at the end of the day, I've forgotten most of what I wanted to type about. So I'm going to star writing things down to make it much easier for me.
So it's day two and I'm already having temptations, lack of motivation, and feeling just down right blah! But I am pushing through it, it also doesn't help that I feel so tired all the time either. I've been looking at finding myself a little 'pick-me-up' and also something to help curve my hunger and help me boost my fat burning lady power LOL! I've been reading the reviews on this supplement pill:
From what I have seen on the reviews it's really good and a lot of people have had great results on it. I don't know about the whole 'magic pill' thing, but if it will possibly boost my energy then I am willing to try it at least. But I want to do all of my research first before I just go out and buy something I know nothing about.
I'm still looking into getting a gym membership, but there are so many it's overwhelming, and do I get a calorie counting watch too? I've been looking into this little guy :
One of my girlfriends has one of these and she's always posting pictures of her progress in her workouts. And this little guy seems like it would make tracking everything a little easier for me.
I have been flowing a gym ( that I'm looking at getting a membership) on facebook and decided to take part in their 2,060 Squat Challenge.
Squat for a month for a super cute booty!? Heck yes, sign me up please!
I’m currently 177 pounds and I am only 27 pounds away from my first goal: 150… and only 42 pounds away from my ultimate goal weight: 135
There are so many emotions tied into this. Why? Because it’s something that I want more than you could ever imagine… and because I've seen so many people reach their goal only to put all the weight back on.
Hey, it happened to ME before! well, I didn't exactly reach my goal, but I did go from 200 to 150 and then back to 165 which I ended up staying that weight for about two years. I wish I could tell you WHY it happened though, it’s something I've never been able to figure out.
Is it because I couldn't maintain the healthy lifestyle?
Is it because I wasn't strong enough?
Is it because I didn't have support?
Is it because I stopped caring about myself?
Is it because I wasn't strong enough?
Is it because I didn't have support?
Is it because I stopped caring about myself?
All of these things are floating through my mind as I start to work closer to that number.
What makes this time different then the last?
I’m actually petrified! Scared to death.
I’m scared that once I reach my goal weight, I still won’t be as happy as I want to be. I'm terrified that once I get there I wont find a happy medium, I've blamed my weight on so many things in my life… and once it’s no longer an issue, what can I use to blame?!
Oh, Natasha’s unhappy? It’s because she’s fat.
Oh, Natasha has no friends? It’s because she’s fat.
Oh, Natasha has no friends? It’s because she’s fat.
Oh, Natasha never leaves her home? It's because she's fat.
You get the picture.
The worst part: I’m absolutely terrified of letting everyone else around me down. I do NOT want them to see me fail AGAIN.
Despite my fears and my doubts, I will not give up. I just have to have faith in myself and be brave. I am only human after all.
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Day 1: Setting Goals.
Day one of my 356 project and I'm already feeling motivated! I am excited about all the changes I am making about my life and making sure I stay healthy and happy. I understand that sometimes I will have set backs and that I will probably will get really frustrated. But this isn't an instant process no matter how much I want it to be. If I could snap my fingers and be skinny and happier with myself I probably would have done it by now. But unfortunately I can't and I have to accept that.
One of the rules I have set for myself is that I am no longer going to say the word 'can't'. I am going to completely throw it out of my vocabulary. No more looking down upon myself. I am no longer going to 'wish' about things. I am going to DO this I CAN do this!
So today I sat myself down and set an ideal goal of what I would like to weigh by the end of this project. I'm also going to post pictures of my progress (though as embarrassed as I am). This will force me to work even harder and to stay on track. I want to feel just as beautiful on the outside as I do on the inside.
Okay so here is my weight chart that I made to track everything. It is pretty simple I just fill in what weight I have lost until I have reached my goal weight. I have a total of 50 lbs that I AM going to lose! I would like to be at least 30 lbs lighter by August which may be a bit of a stretch BUT even if I don't reach that as long as I'm staying on track and am trying that's all that matters.
One of the rules I have set for myself is that I am no longer going to say the word 'can't'. I am going to completely throw it out of my vocabulary. No more looking down upon myself. I am no longer going to 'wish' about things. I am going to DO this I CAN do this!
So today I sat myself down and set an ideal goal of what I would like to weigh by the end of this project. I'm also going to post pictures of my progress (though as embarrassed as I am). This will force me to work even harder and to stay on track. I want to feel just as beautiful on the outside as I do on the inside.
Okay so here is my weight chart that I made to track everything. It is pretty simple I just fill in what weight I have lost until I have reached my goal weight. I have a total of 50 lbs that I AM going to lose! I would like to be at least 30 lbs lighter by August which may be a bit of a stretch BUT even if I don't reach that as long as I'm staying on track and am trying that's all that matters.
I think I have set a manageable goal and I have three hundred sixty-five days to do it. Though I hope to reach it sooner, I have to stay positive no matter what and fight through this. I know I CAN do this, I've done it before two years ago, I was half way though my chart hitting 150 lbs but I don't know what happened. Priorities, stress, and other life events got in the way. But this time I will do it I will get through this!
I plan to get the babies and myself in bed by 10 o'clock tonight. And be up by 7 in the AM. Be showered and ready by 7:30 get the babes up get them breakfast and clothed and out the door by 8-8:30 and off to the park to walk. I want to walk around at least three times each morning. Somewhere in their nap time, get at least a 30 minute work out with the kettle bell. I've also talked to Jeff about maybe getting a gym membership at Court South (which they also offer free child care) or Anytime Fitness for both of us. He's expressed many times about eating healthy and losing weight. So this would be a great project for both of us to do and that could help me keep on track and focused. :)
You Are Lovely.
Introduction. 365
This is my 365 days project of to finding lovely. I want to take everything that is negative and turn it around to a positive. By the end of this project I plan to be a healthier, happier, and hopefully 50 lbs lighter!
As a young 23 year old mother of two babies who were born back to back (12 months apart), not to mention the stress of everyday life has really taken a tole on me physically and emotionally. I've lost myself in the mists of all the chaos. So this is my attempt to get back to the confident person I use to be.
At this moment I hate looking in the mirror and not liking what I see. I mean I have tired multiple times to loose the weight but I've always... failed. I either get too lazy and want to take short cuts or something happens that discourages me and then I give up.
As a young 23 year old mother of two babies who were born back to back (12 months apart), not to mention the stress of everyday life has really taken a tole on me physically and emotionally. I've lost myself in the mists of all the chaos. So this is my attempt to get back to the confident person I use to be.
At this moment I hate looking in the mirror and not liking what I see. I mean I have tired multiple times to loose the weight but I've always... failed. I either get too lazy and want to take short cuts or something happens that discourages me and then I give up.
My children are my number one priority, but I also need to start taking better care of myself too. I want to be able to enjoy them and have may happy years! With both of my parents passing away at the ripe ages of 63 & 62 both from massive heart attacks, it really makes you think about your life. Due to their unhealthy eating habits and life style, their health deteriorated quickly and there were a lot of things that they missed that I wish they could have seen. So here is to a new year and a new me, I will get this weight off, I will be happier, I will be healthier!
Color Me RAD!
Color Me Rad 5K is coming back to Knoxville TN this Fall and I've signed up as a Captain for team Kickin' Asphalt!
Please feel free to join the team and run with us!
Day 1 | Work Out and Weight
Maybe it's just me or my scale but I feel like I've gone backwards instead of making steps forward, granted my scale is 10 year old (maybe even older) and sometimes you have to guesstimate your weight. I weighed myself today to get this weeks weigh in, and I'm at 175 ... again. Ugh talk about utter frustration!
It's been a busy week of work outs for me this week, I mapped out my plan today so I can keep up with everything. I'm starting with the kettle bell work out at 7am each morning (I can at least get a small work out in the AM before the kids wake up to get me started for the day). Then a little fun with hoop dancing, and talk about so much fun! You're burning 100 calories a minute, by the time you've realized an our too has passed, you've burned off at least 1k of your calories. After that we go for our family late evening leisure walk at the duck park. I usually end up having to carry one of them so not only am I carrying extra weight as I walk 3-4 miles on the track so I end up burning a little more.
I've been calorie counting like crazy this past few days with help from myfitnesspal.com I can successfully track what I'm eating, how much etc. and if I have days where I just feel yucky I can see what I have eaten in the past that have made me feel good.
I'll post pictures of my progress soon. I think I'm going to invest into a new digital scale.
It's been a busy week of work outs for me this week, I mapped out my plan today so I can keep up with everything. I'm starting with the kettle bell work out at 7am each morning (I can at least get a small work out in the AM before the kids wake up to get me started for the day). Then a little fun with hoop dancing, and talk about so much fun! You're burning 100 calories a minute, by the time you've realized an our too has passed, you've burned off at least 1k of your calories. After that we go for our family late evening leisure walk at the duck park. I usually end up having to carry one of them so not only am I carrying extra weight as I walk 3-4 miles on the track so I end up burning a little more.
I've been calorie counting like crazy this past few days with help from myfitnesspal.com I can successfully track what I'm eating, how much etc. and if I have days where I just feel yucky I can see what I have eaten in the past that have made me feel good.
I'll post pictures of my progress soon. I think I'm going to invest into a new digital scale.
For those of you who are wondering the MTWTFSS are days of the week that I'm doing these work outs
MTT Kettle Bell Workout 7 am
20 1-2 reps 'meet the queen' or hockey lunge
20 1-2 reps basket ball throw or lean
20 1-2 reps around the world clockwise & counter clockwise
20 1-2 reps kettle bell throw
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MTWTFSS Hoop Dance Workout 12-1 pm
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MTWTFSS Workout 8 pm
Jogging
Running
Walking























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