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Saying Goodbye To The Girls.


Almost two months ago I had undergone a surgery that has since changed my life in such a positive way imaginable! What may you ask did I have done? Well going by my title for this post and if you're guess right...




Yes, I said GOODBYE TO MY BOOBIES!



This has been one of the best life changing experiences I have made since deciding to go the healthy rout in life (cutting out all the yucky garbage in my food and going Paleo (thanks to Miss Ashley Vos) and gluten free).

Let’s face it, my entire young adult life I have always been … well-endowed. By age 13 (well into puberty at this point) I was in a size DD and the older I got well … the bigger they got. Growing up I was never really a chubby kid, I was just all boobs. After being sick for a while, my mum passing away when I was 19, on top of being a brand new mom at 20 I put on a lot of stress weight, and my weight went everywhere but my butt,  (the only place in the world I WISH I had fat in LOL)! Adding even more pounds to my chest. By the time I was 22 I had two babies, a size G bra and 40 pounds added to my small frame. So for the last three years I have yo-yo dieted, which has sucked. But somehow I managed to lose a lot of the weight and keep a steady 175 (which doesn’t look bad for my height since I’ve got long legs and a semi short torso)pounds, but I was still lugging around ginormous tata’s every day. Which made me super self-conscious. I seriously avoided the gym and running for fear of being knocked out or facing a black eye from being whacked in the face by my own boobs...


For the last year and a half I was a three-times-a-week chiropractic patient just to relieve the pain and pressure off my back from the girls. Bras never fit right, I was always secretly tucking my boobs back into my bra and those super sexy lace bras (you know the ones I’ve been drooling over from Modcloth) I kissed those goodbye years ago because they were ALWAYS out of the question for me. I was stuck with vanilla wide strap bras that cost way too much considering they are just two large triangles with straps.  


So after months of chiropractic care and not seeing any relief, I finally called my insurance (which I am SO very thankful to have a wonderful insurance company that was so easy to work with during this process) to get names and numbers of Doctors who would do a medical breast reduction.   The list was extremely short. Like only three doctors short. Which is crazy since I’m about 30 minutes from Knoxville Tennessee and there are SO many plastic surgeons there. Only one out of the three was still doing medically needed breast reductions. ONLY ONE and HE was a male. Which to be honest, I’m really weird about having male doctors they never seem to have any good bedside manors and they just can’t relate to a woman like a female doctor can.


So on top of that I was super nervous and very awkward when it was time to go for my appointment (plus I was about 20 minutes late because of down town Knoxville traffic and UT hospital is HUGE! I had to ask for directions twice, inside of the building)!


The first initial appointment is like any other “first time seeing the doctor” appointment. They measure you, take your weight, the nurse asks if you have had any family history of breast cancer or tumors, past surgeries etc. etc. you dress out of your street clothes and into a surgical gown. Seriously, it’s just like any other typical doctor visit.


They give you a little time to get undressed, gown on and get comfortable. Both the doctor and his nursing assistant walk into the room, introduce themselves and then begin working. He took more measurements and then examined my chest tells the nurse and she jots them down in your chart. The one things I was extremely worried about was my right breast. Some of the tissue was missing due to a lumpectomy that was done three years ago which unfortunately left a giant hole the size of two fingers and a huge indention.


I have always been told that when meeting with a new doctor for the first time about a specific procedure always, ALWAYS ask questions. Never leave anything unturned or left unspoken because the more information you get from them the better you will be and feel about your procedure. Never go into a major surgery with no information given or concerns/questions answered!


Let me tell you, I had a HUGE list of questions to ask too! He answered every question that I had with genuine concern and he was so honest with me. Which is pretty admirable considering. No wonder all the women in the lobby ooh’ed and ahh’ed over him when I asked about their experience with him.


Now let me give you some advice on this process if you are entertaining the thought of a medically needed breast reduction. It is also good to seek out other options before you resort to this if you are having back problems or pain due to the enormous pressure and pull that is cause by your large breasts. This major surgery really is looked at as your FINAL and LAST RESORT.







Here are some other options you can look into to find some relief: a great chiropractor, massage therapist, or physical therapist. All these options I have done, but the relief I experienced wasn’t long lasting.


1.      Have existing problems that are fully documented in detail from other doctors. It is also good to have at least two doctor recommendations such as your primary care doctor, chiropractor or physical therapist. Insurance will not accept the procedure if you don’t.


2.     Have a good insurance company. Call and talk with one of their health advisors about this first. They will be the first to give you information on it, your coverage and recommend doctors.


3.     Research the doctors from the list that they give you. I always want to know who I’m seeing, what they have done in the past, if they have any (good or bad) reviews from previous patients, and check out their work. Most plastic surgeons have a website that you can look at to gather this information or you can google search them.


4.     Make your first initial appointment for the doctor you choose from the list they gave you. This first appointment is free of charge and you or your insurance will not be billed. Be sure to bring the following with you to your appointment:


·        your list of questions and concerns


·        insurance card and information


·        recommendations from two other doctors


5.     If you feel comfortable with the doctor, make the appointment for your surgery and wait. The surgeon will fax all the needed information to your insurance company. It is now up to them if you are eligible for the procedure.


It took my insurance company a while to review all the information my surgeon had faxed them. To be really honest, I prayed long and hard on this and my prayers were answered. My surgery was accepted by my insurance company a week before my surgery!


When I received the news from the ladies at my surgeon’s office, I was over joyed! I seriously cried my eyes out long and hard. I even had the staff crying over the phone with me! This was something I had been praying about for quite some time and now it was finally being answered! I even called and texted everyone on my little contact list. My best friend, which I still laugh out loud about this, said over the phone “Wow I’ve never heard someone so excited to get her boobies chopped off!” But it was true, I was so happy! Years and years of dealing with the pain and pull and my spine being so out of alignment was finally over, I would be more comfortable and confident and now I felt like I could really shed those baby and stress weight pounds off.


Surgery day came quicker than I imagined and I was a nervous wreck. Which if you read my blog post about the tumor I had removed from my back and leg a few years ago, I always get crazy pre-surgery jitters. It’s really bad, to the point where I rewrite my will just-in-case. Which seems silly because I’ve had SO many surgeries, more than I can count on both hands.


Anyway surgery day, I get prepped and marked. My chest seriously looked like my three year old took a marker to me. There were marks all over the place! These marks tell my doctor where he needs to go and what he needs to cut and where he needs to place what where. So I looked like an art project for a few hours.


Three hours and FOUR pounds removed from my chest later, I was out of surgery and feeling great! The staff was amazing and took great care of me and not to mention they gave me a super sexy surgical bra to wear (really, it’s not bad for a surgical bra). ;-)


Recovery lasted three weeks, which I highly enjoyed being waiting on hand and foot not having to lift a single finger. Really. I didn’t lift anything. For three weeks. I slept in, watched moves, and got a lot of my early summer reading done! I was able to shower on my forth day. The only things that was really bothersome was the drainage tubes and bulbs you had to empty every nine hours and record.


I was released for normal exercise and routine in June and since I now run the local outdoor track, joined a gym, and have lost 15 more pounds! I am finally feeling good about myself. I’ve dropped down to seeing the Chiropractor only when I really need it. Over all I just feel really good about myself and my body and I am so glad I had this done. I went from a G to a small B and I could not be any happier with the outcome!
 

365 Project :: 2,060 Squat Challenge and Thoughts.

A 365 do over, what? Yeah ...  I'm calling a do over because I went almost two weeks of not really eating right, even though I kept my portions small I still wasn't eating the right stuff, so I'm calling a do-over!


Above is my current weight, which is 177 lbs. Yes I know, I am awful, I'm starting over AGAIN. Rome wasn't built in a day.  I just have to keep telling myself that I CAN.

This morning I've mostly stayed in the house, I had some major laundry work to do, it was to the point where the more laundry I did the thought of being a nudest wasn't really that scary. Majority of laundry consisted of my little ones belongings from piles and piles of socks. Hopefully the drier doesn't eat them again, I can't tell you how many times I've had to buy brand new pairs of socks for everyone!

I realize by the time I sit down at the end of the day, I've forgotten most of what I wanted to type about. So I'm going to star writing things down to make it much easier for me. 

So it's day two and I'm already having temptations, lack of motivation, and feeling just down right blah! But I am pushing through it, it also doesn't help that I feel so tired all the time either. I've been looking at finding myself a little 'pick-me-up' and also something to help curve my hunger and help me boost my fat burning lady power LOL! I've been reading the reviews on this supplement pill:


From what I have seen on the reviews it's really good and a lot of people have had great results on it. I don't know about the whole 'magic pill' thing, but if it will possibly boost my energy then I am willing to try it at least. But I want to do all of my research first before I just go out and buy something I know nothing about.

I'm still looking into getting a gym membership, but there are so many it's overwhelming, and do I get a calorie counting watch too? I've been looking into this little guy :



One of my girlfriends has one of these and she's always posting pictures of her progress in her workouts. And this little guy seems like it would make tracking everything a little easier for me.

I have been flowing a gym  ( that I'm looking at getting a membership) on facebook and decided to take part in their 2,060 Squat Challenge.

 Squat for a month for a super cute booty!? Heck yes, sign me up please!

I’m currently 177 pounds and I am only 27 pounds away from my first goal: 150… and only 42 pounds away from my ultimate goal weight: 135

There are so many emotions tied into this. Why? Because it’s something that I want more than you could ever imagine… and because I've seen so many people reach their goal only to put all the weight back on.

Hey, it happened to ME before! well, I didn't exactly reach my goal, but I did go from 200 to 150 and then back to 165 which I ended up staying that weight for about two years. I wish I could tell you WHY it happened though, it’s something I've never been able to figure out.

Is it because I couldn't maintain the healthy lifestyle?
Is it because I wasn't strong enough?
Is it because I didn't have support?
Is it because I stopped caring about myself?

All of these things are floating through my mind as I start to work closer to that number.

What makes this time different then the last?

I’m actually petrified! Scared to death.

I’m scared that once I reach my goal weight, I still won’t be as happy as I want to be. I'm terrified that once I get there I wont find a happy medium, I've blamed my weight on so many things in my life… and once it’s no longer an issue, what can I use to blame?!

Oh, Natasha’s unhappy? It’s because she’s fat.
Oh, Natasha has no friends? It’s because she’s fat.
Oh, Natasha never leaves her home? It's because she's fat.

You get the picture.

The worst part:  I’m absolutely terrified of letting everyone else around me down. I do NOT want them to see me fail AGAIN

Despite my fears and my doubts, I will not give up. I just have to have faith in myself and be brave. I am only human after all.




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Day 1: Setting Goals.

Day one of my 356 project and I'm already feeling motivated! I am excited about all the changes I am making about my life and making sure I stay healthy and happy.  I understand that sometimes I will have set backs and that I will probably will get really frustrated. But this isn't an instant process no matter how much I want it to be. If I could snap my fingers and be skinny and happier with myself I probably would have done it by now. But unfortunately I can't and I have to accept that.

One of the rules I have set for myself is that I am no longer going to say the word 'can't'. I am going to completely throw it out of my vocabulary.  No more looking down upon myself. I am no longer going to 'wish' about things. I am going to DO this I CAN do this!

So today I sat myself down and set an ideal goal of what I would like to weigh by the end of this project. I'm also going to post pictures of my progress (though as embarrassed as I am). This will force me to work even harder and to stay on track. I want to feel just as beautiful on the outside as I do on the inside.

Okay so here is my weight chart that I made to track everything. It is pretty simple I just fill in what weight I have lost until I have reached my goal weight. I  have a total of 50 lbs that I AM going to lose! I would like to be at least 30 lbs lighter by August which may be a bit of a stretch BUT even if I don't reach that as long as I'm staying on track and am trying that's all that matters. 

I think I have set a manageable goal and I have three hundred sixty-five days to do it. Though I hope to reach it sooner,  I have to stay positive no matter what and fight through this. I know I CAN do this, I've done it before two years ago, I was half way though my chart hitting 150 lbs but I don't know what happened. Priorities, stress, and other life events got in the way. But this time I will do it I will get through this!

I plan to get the babies and myself in bed by 10 o'clock tonight. And be up by 7 in the AM. Be showered and ready by 7:30 get the babes up get them breakfast and clothed and out the door by 8-8:30 and off to the park to walk. I want to walk around at least three times each morning. Somewhere in their nap time, get at least a 30 minute work out with the kettle bell. I've also talked to Jeff about maybe getting a gym membership at Court South (which they also offer free child care) or Anytime Fitness for both of us. He's expressed many times about eating healthy and losing weight. So this would be a great project for both of us to do and that could help me keep on track and focused.  :)

You Are Lovely.





Introduction. 365

This is my 365 days project of to finding lovely. I want to take everything that is negative and turn it around to a positive. By the end of this project I plan to be a healthier, happier, and hopefully 50 lbs lighter!

As a young 23 year old mother of two babies who were born back to back (12 months apart), not to mention the stress of everyday life has really taken a tole on me physically and emotionally. I've lost myself in the mists of all the chaos. So this is my attempt to get back to the confident person I use to be.

At this moment I hate looking in the mirror and not liking what I see. I mean I have tired multiple times to loose the weight but I've always... failed. I either get too lazy and want to take short cuts or something happens that discourages me and then I give up.

My children are my number one priority, but I also need to start taking better care of myself too. I want to be able to enjoy them and have may happy years! With both of my parents passing away at the ripe ages of 63 & 62 both from massive heart attacks, it really makes you think about your life. Due to their unhealthy eating habits and life style, their health deteriorated quickly and  there were a lot of things that they missed that I wish they could have seen. So here is to a new year and a new me, I will get this weight off, I will be happier, I will be healthier!

By the end of this project I plan to:




  1.  Have a better out look on my life.
  2. Stress less.
  3. Have healthier eating habits.
  4. Weigh 50lbs lighter.
  5. Worry less.
  6. No longer be in a slump.
  7. And above all else: Be Lovely!


Color Me RAD!



Color Me Rad 5K is coming back to Knoxville TN this Fall and I've signed up as a Captain for team Kickin' Asphalt!

Please feel free to join the team and run with us!



Day 1 | Work Out and Weight

Maybe it's just me or my scale but I feel like I've gone backwards instead of making steps forward, granted my scale is 10 year old (maybe even older) and sometimes you have to guesstimate your weight. I weighed myself today to get this weeks weigh in, and I'm at 175 ... again. Ugh talk about utter frustration!


It's been a busy week of work outs for me this week, I mapped out my plan today so I can keep up with everything.  I'm starting with the kettle bell work out at 7am each morning  (I can at least get a small work out in the AM before the kids wake up to get me started for the day). Then a little fun with hoop dancing, and talk about so much fun! You're burning 100 calories a minute, by the time you've realized an our too has passed, you've burned off at least 1k of your calories. After that we go for our family late evening leisure walk at the duck park. I usually end up having to carry one of them so not only am I carrying extra weight as I walk 3-4 miles on the track so I end up burning a little more.
I've been calorie counting like crazy this past few days with help from myfitnesspal.com I can successfully track  what I'm eating, how much etc. and if I have days where I just feel yucky I can see what I have eaten in the past that have made me feel good. 
I'll post pictures of my progress soon.  I think I'm going to invest into a new digital scale.



For those of you who are wondering the MTWTFSS are days of the week that I'm doing these work outs

MTT Kettle Bell Workout 7 am
20 1-2 reps 'meet the queen' or hockey lunge 
20 1-2 reps basket ball throw or lean 
20 1-2 reps around the world clockwise & counter clockwise 
20 1-2 reps kettle bell throw
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MTWTFSS Hoop Dance Workout 12-1 pm
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MTWTFSS Workout 8 pm
Jogging 
Running
Walking






 
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